Introduction

 So initially I was using wordpress but decided I preferred blogger for many reasons. So my first couple of posts are going to posted the same day as I've already published them on there. 

A little about me first, I am a first time mum to a baby boy born in lockdown 2020 and to say it's been a nightmare would be an understatement. My little guy is now six weeks old and still as spewy as he was at four weeks.

Just a quick one as my crotch goblin is laid across me trying his utmost to poo! Four weeks ago I became a mother for the first time. I have a long history of struggling mentally so it was no real surprise when two days ago I was advised I seem to have post natal depression and urged to go back on medication before it had a negative impact upon my baby. What’s being a mum like? Hard. Bloody hard. And harder than I thought at that. It’s the most under rated, under valued thing in the world. “Just” being a mum. I love and hate it. I resent what it’s done to my body, I am in envy of my husband getting to go out to work every day whilst I’m up to my eyeballs in filthy nappies, screamed at and vomited on all the while trying to maintain the house and keep our pets happy too. But I do love my baby. One silver lining I guess.

As I’ve spent five minutes typing this, said crotch goblin has spewed all over my arm whilst following through and laid across my lap so on that note I’ll call it a day for now and go back to my tiring day to day. Have a good one.